Okay, well, I started training about two weeks ago, but knew that the race was far enough off to not get too serious. However, as is typical with me, if I go more than 2 days without working out - especially running - my mental energy begins slipping. I get antsy, angsty, angry, and generally not that fun to be around. I also have learned in the last few months that I grit my teeth when I haven't gotten my daily endorphin kick. I have been futzing all day whilst the clock tick-tocks away to my deadline that I MUST get out the door or call it another lost opportunity. My jaw is killing me and I can't seem to sit still. It's a beautiful day out and this a perfect "run day" in the grand scheme of my workouts. So, why am I not out there?
Fear.
Really, that's all it comes down to. Fear of being fabulous and fear of success. So... yeah... its 1:16pm. I have to be showered and ready to head out to a gig by 3:30. I should run 4 miles, but even getting out there for 3! GO, damnit, GET OUT THERE! ... Okay, three miles... I know the route to get me my 3 miles. Out and back. Then I can take a shower (because I stink!) and put on my new make-up.
Also, I really want my jaw to relax, so... I know where my shoes are... It's 1:35... be back in 30+.
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